10/14/14
                           
                           Verse 78
                           
                            
                           
                           There is no death, or birth, or existence;
                           
                           man, gods and all such are name and form;
                           
                           what exists is like the water of a mirage in the desert—
                           
                           it does not exist; this should be remembered.
                           
                            
                           
                                   
                           Free
                           translation:
                           
                            
                           
                           There is neither death nor birth nor any manifested form of
                           life. There are neither men nor gods nor anything of that sort. All of them are
                           only names and forms. Their substance is only that of a desert mirage—and that
                           is, for sure, no substance at all.
                           
                            
                           
                                   
                           Nataraja
                           Guru’s translation:
                           
                            
                           
                           Neither is there death nor birth nor life duration here,
                           
                           Nor men or gods nor others of that order; all name and form
                           
                           Like a mirage based on desert sands, is this thing that
                           stands
                           
                           Nor is it a thing at all with any content, note.
                           
                            
                           
                                   
                           A
                           few brave souls dared to attend class on this most ferocious of all the hundred
                           verses, and we managed to take it well as dedicated philosophers. Though
                           utterly clear, there may be some more worth saying about it.
                           
                                   
                           Although
                           this is the only verse that specifically mentions that the world we perceive is
                           a mirage, it is foreshadowed in Verse 27:
                           
                            
                           
                           Sitting in the dark, that which
                           knows is the self;
                           
                           what is known then assumes name
                           and form,
                           
                           with the psychic dynamism,
                           senses, agency of action and also action;
                           
                           see how it all comes as mahendra
                           magic!
                           
                            
                           
                                   
                           Mahendra
                           magic is pretty much identical to a mirage: something created out of nothing.
                           Reaccessing nothingness is tricky to do by employing somethingness, though the
                           dialectic method of yoga has a lot to be said for it. Here “sitting in the
                           dark” is equivalent to the state where there is “no death, birth or existence,”
                           and everything, even divinity, is nothing more than name and form. What
                           Narayana Guru adds now is that we should do our best not to forget this truth.
                           We tend to be captivated by the play of name and form, and go right back into
                           it after a short break (if we can manage one) in meditation. We love mahendra
                           magic! It’s fun! Sometimes. By this point in our study, however, the
                           insubstantiality of what we perceive should have become a conviction. This can
                           only stay with us if we have reconnected with the ground, which is not “us” in
                           any conceivable sense. We are That alone.
                           
                                   
                           Nitya
                           hints at the saving grace that discovering we are nothing is a great relief, in
                           knowing that the binding nets that hold us prisoner do not have to be
                           preserved. They are not life preservers. But he didn’t want to let us off
                           easily. He wanted to scorch us so that we would possibly take a drastic step to
                           break free: 
                           
                            
                           
                           The temptation that comes to
                           someone who enters a spiritual path is to hold onto the desires of the mind
                           while seeking realization. He will make many rationalizations to justify the
                           cravings, trying to cast them in a spiritual light. But there comes a point in
                           life when you have to take a drastic step. If you don’t take it yourself in a
                           philosophic manner, eventually nature will provide the example of the
                           inevitable termination of life when the body perishes, proving irrefutably that
                           you cannot depend on any promise from the flux of becoming.
                           
                            
                           
                           In the original class everyone was madly in love with Nitya,
                           as well as the situation. We had great friendships, great food, perfect peace,
                           and twice a day the best lectures anyone had ever imagined. In between the
                           lecture/meditations was a “concentration camp” dedicated to preserving and
                           sharing wisdom. It doesn’t get any better than that! At the same time, Nitya
                           was in demand all over the planet, jetting off regularly to Australia, Moscow,
                           Singapore, India and Indiana, to name just a few of his haunts. We must have
                           seemed very sticky to him, the way we
                           wanted to keep him around. We devotedly wanted to hold onto him, as he was the
                           centerpiece of our wonderful life. Many of us were making detailed plans to
                           expand the ideal lifestyle we were enjoying. Pretty quickly that morning Nitya
                           served us the bitter pill:
                           
                            
                           
                           This is something I personally
                           experience as one of the major issues of life. It comes up in people with whom
                           I have been talking or writing to for some time. Unknowingly they try to adjust
                           their life movements in such a way that they can be with me more, have long
                           periods of association with me, or even have their life dedicated to a certain
                           cause which I somehow represent to them. But the “certain cause” is imaginary—what
                           they are drawn to is an actual person with whom they feel a sense of security.
                           When they begin to plan like this, I see the absurdity of it. I am after all
                           only a bubble that may burst at any moment. They will also burst, but they are
                           thinking of permanent possibilities, one being that this man will live forever
                           or at least as long as they want him to. They don’t think that this bag of gas
                           can blow at any time. When they start planning like that, I also start planning—to
                           get rid of them.
                           
                            
                           
                           That last line hit me like a bomb. There was no doubt this
                           was about us. It was okay to give up negativity and stupidity. Good riddance!
                           But positivity is such a pleasure, so meaningful. It’s much harder to let go
                           of. Only when you see that it also binds can you begin to contemplate the
                           attempt.
                           
                                   
                           Nitya
                           was a compassionate soul, so he mitigated the blow a little, later in the talk:
                           
                            
                           
                           Somewhere we have to part
                           company. It’s inevitable. If not today, then tomorrow. When it comes it can be
                           very painful. The best thing is to part company now, and continue to sit
                           together in the waiting room awhile. You have already said good-bye but you are
                           still sitting here visiting. But you know it is all over, that very soon we
                           will all get up and go our separate ways.
                           
                             
                           Nobody
                           really wants to accept this truth. It is very unpleasant. You want things to go
                           on as they are just a little bit longer. You can rationalize it for a long
                           time. But sooner or later a day comes when you have to part with everything.
                           That parting can be effected here and now, even when the body seems to exist,
                           the person and the world seem to exist; or it can be postponed until it is
                           forced upon you by the final dissolution of the body.
                           
                            
                           
                           Of course, as Deb pointed out this is just an example. We
                           have all built lives we like, and are resistant to change. This has to be taken
                           to heart by anyone who is serious about breaking free of their entanglements,
                           both conscious and unconscious. Knowing that it will surely happen when we die
                           provides the incentive to begin preparing ahead of time.
                           
                                   
                           Nitya’s
                           Buddhist friend whose philosophy failed him when death knocked on his door is
                           echoed by Steve Weckel’s tale of his grandmother. She was an old-style
                           fundamentalist Christian from Texas, cocksure of her beliefs. She was always
                           preaching the Bible, and hated anyone who wasn’t like her, knowing they were
                           going straight to hell. She knew without the least doubt she had a prime seat
                           reserved at the right hand of Jeeesus when she died. But when her death loomed
                           up, all her convictions failed her, and she psychically collapsed. She died a
                           broken woman, unable to resurrect the abstractions that had sustained her life.
                           They were all meaningless in the face of her immanent extinction.
                           
                                   
                           There
                           is no doubt the reality of dying is something we hardly have access to. Sure,
                           we know we are going to die. Yet actually our entire psyche is built on the
                           certitude of our eternity, and cannot even contemplate any alternative.
                           
                                   
                           Humans
                           spend a lot of time crafting a plausible philosophy to justify how they live,
                           but to a true seer all belief systems look like a cloud of unknowing fogging
                           their adherents’ brains. We feel certain we need structured beliefs to ratify
                           our existence, just as some people fear that if they stop talking they will
                           cease to exist. Yet if we dare to let go we find we are buoyed up by something.
                           It’s a something that is not
                           built up from theories, it is a pre-existing truth. Nitya encourages us to let
                           go so we can discover it:
                           
                            
                           
                           The Guru is asking you if you are
                           willing to throw all these away as nonsense—your karma theory, your rebirth
                           theory, your salvation theory, your savior theory? “Oh, that’s very difficult.”
                           If you find it to be difficult, you are not fit for this study. If you opt for
                           it, you should make a summary dismissal of everything as phenomenal. Does it
                           exist? Yes, it exists, in the way a mirage exists. It has just that much
                           existence. It seems to be so.
                           
                            
                           
                                   
                           The
                           class added that from an absolutist perspective scientific schemes are no
                           different than any other superstition. They are constructs, complex belief
                           systems. Their apparent factuality is a powerful lure to indulge in them, but
                           at their core they are also mirages.
                           
                                   
                           All
                           living systems of thought are an attempt to understand ourselves. Physics is
                           now bumping up against the paradoxes inherent in a world of constructs. I
                           promised to add a brief report from the cutting edge that approaches Narayana
                           Guru’s insight here, although the implications are not yet drawn by the
                           authors:
                           
                            
                           
                           Scientific American, August 2014:
                           
                           The Black Hole at the Beginning
                           of Time
                           
                           by Afshordi, Mann and Pourhasan
                           
                            
                           
                           Subtitle: “Is the big bang,
                           and
                           all that came from it, a holographic mirage from another dimension?”
                           
                            
                           
                             
                           The
                           authors propose that our three dimensional universe is a mirage-like shadow of
                           a four-dimensional universe, which clears up a number of problems arising from
                           the “naked” big bang theory currently popular. Their solution “turns the big
                           bang into a cosmic mirage.” They also propose their theory could be tested
                           scientifically, and the recently detected gravitational waves could provide clues.
                           
                            
                           
                           Regardless of theory, letting go of the conviction that what
                           we see is reality is virtually impossible. It most certainly requires the
                           assistance of a wise and compassionate teacher, even if we burn with desire for
                           the achievement. And most of us are more like a flickering flame that threatens
                           to go out at any moment. Our small spark needs hands cupped around it and an
                           occasional puff of breath simply to keep it alive.
                           
                                   
                           No
                           wonder we wanted that beaming Guru to stay with us!
                           
                                   
                           Nitya
                           eased us down a bit more, saying, “Can you accept that this is only a momentary
                           arrangement? Can you accept that this is all ephemeral, without any compromise?
                           If you can, it takes away all your burdens. You know that all your struggles
                           are only until you wake up.”
                           
                                   
                           This
                           caused Paul to recall a woman’s TED talk relating a near death experience she
                           had had. She likened it to swimming in a lake and diving underwater, holding
                           your breath as long as you could, then at the last moment coming up for air but
                           bumping against a dock floating in the water. In desperation you swim farther,
                           trying to find your way up. Just as you are about to give out, you burst into
                           the air. That first sharp sweet breath, quelling all the panic, is how dying
                           felt to her.
                           
                                   
                           Although
                           gurus are essential, in the matter of making the leap we are ultimately on our
                           own, because “You come to this not through any argument in your mind. It comes
                           as an act of recognition, factual recognition.” No argument will succeed, and
                           no non-argument will, either. But if we prepare the ground properly, an
                           irrefutable crack between the worlds may appear.
                           
                                   
                           Preparing
                           the ground means dismissing our cherished convictions as relativistic drivel.
                           Perhaps only meeting someone who has already done it can make it seem
                           worthwhile. By giving themselves up they don’t just fade away, they become
                           infinitely more available, infinitely more effective. Where our best intentions
                           keep being diverted into dead ends, their lack of intentions keeps them open
                           and zooming ahead. Nitya once described following a guru as climbing behind an
                           expert mountaineer, who is racing up the cliff above you. All you can see is
                           his boots, and you struggle to grasp the slight handholds he has used himself.
                           It’s all you can do to keep up. And there is nothing theoretical about it. If
                           you slip you fall.
                           
                                   
                           Everyone
                           loved the last paragraph, with its idea of getting along with your ex-spouse.
                           Incidentally it defines unattachment rather well:
                           
                            
                           
                           You have to push aside everything
                           relative. Afterwards you can again sit there, but you will feel all the
                           difference. It is a bit like an ex-wife coming back as a good friend. You can
                           be friends then because there is a lot of detachment after all the previous
                           attachment. You will clearly know the difference between the two experiences.
                           Like that, you ask the supreme Attorney to arrange for a separation from this
                           world, from all this relativism, and to effect your divorce. Then afterwards
                           you can come back and live as a friend to the world of relativism. That makes
                           you an asanga, an unattached person.
                           
                            
                           
                                   
                           I
                           saved another clipping written by quantum physicists that bears on the verse
                           and makes a lovely ending to our harrowing reassessment. It suggests if we
                           relinquish our mirage-like fixations we may find a new state of being that is
                           much more real, though somewhat strange to us. (Although the book under
                           reference doesn’t make the journey to Oz out to be a dream, the movie does, and
                           that’s what most people know nowadays, unfortunately):
                           
                            
                           
                           NY Times Grey Matter:
                           
                           So You’re Not A Physicist…
                           by
                           Robert P. Crease and Alfred Scharft Goldhaber (Sept. 27. 2014)
                           
                            
                           
                           Popular books about physics often
                           treat the quantum world as a weird place, a freak show, a realm in which human
                           beings could never feel at home. We think it’s just the reverse. Things are
                           weird only in contrast with the familiar. If what we think is familiar turns
                           out to be a fantasy and to contain false assumptions—if our world turns out to
                           be odder than we think—then the quantum world will not seem so freakish.
                           
                             
                           In
                           that case, the quest to learn about the quantum world will have a sort of
                           upside-down “Wizard of Oz” ending, in which we suddenly realize that what we
                           thought was home was really only a dream, and that our world always was a
                           little like Oz.
                           
                            
                           
                           Part II
                           
                            
                           
                                   
                           Neither This Nor That But . . . Aum is
                           particularly helpful:
                           
                            
                           
                                   
                           Man
                           seeks immortality. The fear of death is the greatest of all dreads. No one can
                           overcome this fear by perpetuating the physical body as an imperishable
                           substance. Deliverance from fear is always sought, and it is realized by arriving
                           at truth and by recognizing it as the one value which makes the beautiful good
                           and the good beautiful.
                           
                                   
                           Death
                           is a phenomenal experience of transformation. In one sense, it is a pause
                           between two orders of functions in which a series of self-maintained and
                           self-directed operations to preserve and continue the integrity of an organism
                           is brought to a close, and is then followed by a different mode of
                           self-directed operations to disintegrate, disorganize and dissipate the
                           organism into its more basic elements, from which the transformed substance can
                           again enter into a fresh cycle of organized behaviour. A close look at death
                           will reveal that it does not happen all at once. Within the body, birth and
                           death are happening simultaneously and continuously.
                           
                                   
                           The
                           births of new cells, new functions, and new coordinations are all happening
                           from moment to moment. If there is any truth in what modern physicists say
                           about subatomic particles—bodies are emitted out of sheer nothingness and they
                           are then devoured by antimatter bodies—then, what we call birth, existence and
                           death are only conventional suppositions. These suppositions are valid in a
                           world of transactions. The horror of this validity can be somewhat mitigated
                           for those fortunate ones who are able to turn their life-stream into a
                           continuous symphony and a graceful dance attuned to an ingenious choreography
                           designed by a master who has a perfect insight of the probability curve of the
                           seeming chaos and randomness of the flux called world.
                           
                                   
                           As
                           it is impossible for most of us to dream of such a possibility, even in the
                           wonderland of a utopia, we are left with only two alternatives. One is to turn
                           away from this world and follow the footsteps of those masters and saviours who
                           can show us the path to the Transcendent. In one sense or another, theistic
                           Brahmanism, Judaism, Christianity, Islam and non-theistic disciplines like the
                           Sankhyan's, the Taoist's and that of the Zen masters are all biased in favour
                           of the transcendent. Philosophers like Kant have also given transcendence their
                           best attention, and modern phenomenologists have improved upon it. The other
                           alternative is to flow with the current of the flux without any special
                           philosophy of life and be “Les Miserables.” In this field one can also
                           entertain himself with the jarring music of the existentialists by joining the
                           choral song of anguish and nausea, and also realize how strong and irrefutable
                           one's existence is when helplessness makes self-pity more than an obsession.
                           
                                   
                           While
                           Jean Paul Sartre thinks that man is cursed with his own freedom, even to the
                           point of violating and hindering it, Narayana Guru avoids the dismal
                           conclusions of the existentialist. Before leading us into the haven of
                           deliverance, the Guru pauses for a moment in the favourite haunts of the
                           phenomenologists to reconnoitre the crossroads on which, almost
                           ritualistically, all philosophers stumble on an enigma and go round and round
                           in the vicious circles perpetuated by tautology and contradiction. He does not
                           tarry here long, however, because in the very next two verses he offers us his
                           hand to surmount this hurdle, which St. John of the Cross compares to walking
                           in the path of darkness, guided by darkness, to ultimately arrive before the
                           darkest of all darkness, or to the ascending of Mount Carmel confronting
                           nothing, nothing, nothing, and expecting only nothing also on the summit.
                           
                            
                           
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                           Nataraja
                           Guru’s commentary:
                           
                            
                           
                           EVEN the frame of reference from cosmology and psychology
                           that was depended on to bring the notion of the Absolute into its own proper
                           perspective is here abandoned and the Guru’s speculation soars one degree
                           higher. The preparation for this total vision, discarding all scaffoldings to
                           help to raise the edifice of non-dual thought in the self-realizing process of
                           contemplation, was already begun in the end of the previous verse where the
                           five apparently different principles of the elemental aspect of nature were
                           merged into a central unity. As soon as contemplation is able to see the unity
                           behind the diversity of phenomena it is not to remain statically fixed even to the idea of diversity.
                           Speculation rises  higher and more neutrally into purer and freer
                           abstractions.
                           
                            
                           
                           In the present verse it will be noticed that, while the
                           mythological, actual and
                           other miscellaneous conditionings are shed, only the vestige of the reference to name
                           and form taken together is retained. Birth, death and duration refer to the
                           vertical axis of the frame of reference merely nominally and as tacitly implied
                           even in their denial. Men, gods and other things or entities of a similar
                           order, which may be said to depend more on the horizontal factor, are effaced
                           even before the name-form residue. The denizens of space, with whom mythology,
                           theology or literature are populated, are all swept away, as it were, at one
                           stroke, and the stage is set ready for the higher contemplative verities to be
                           examined hereafter, before the hundred verses complete the total cycle open to
                           introspection or overt speculation with general ideas.
                           
                            
                           
                           Name and form are those aspects of thought or mentation which
                           persist even when the grosser elements of consciousness have been analysed and
                           found empty by an intense process of contemplation. Name and form remain in the
                           mind of thinking man as categories that still give room for some kind of
                           ideation or mentation into which entities distinguishable by them faintly
                           adhere and seem to occupy a place as configurations within consciousness.
                           
                            
                           
                           Although the contemplative is to go behind and beyond this
                           pair of conditionings to which his consciousness is subject, to come up against
                           the full light of the vision of the Absolute, the Guru stops short of
                           abolishing name and form here, still giving them recognition. All plurality
                           depends on names and forms. They are two poles, like the matter and form of
                           Aristotle or the visible and the intelligible of Plato - which are again the
                           same as the two orders of the observables and calculables that modern
                           scientific philosophers are beginning to distinguish as being at the base of
                           all strict reasoning
                           or knowledge that can result overtly or actually.
                           
                            
                           
                           When reality has thus been reduced to just name meeting form,
                           only seeming to contain the distinct entities that we take seriously but
                           erroneously as things, what is there left in its place? The Guru here tries to determine
                           the status of the reality that is left when aspects of appearance through name
                           and form are abolished. He takes the favourite example of the mirage which
                           seems to have the thirst-quenching value-content called water. In reality it
                           has no such value-content, and dry sand, which has no such value, is the
                           existential basis on which the life-giving waters were imagined. Thus, not only
                           is there an optical illusion, but an emptiness of value or interest. What is
                           false can still be seen by the senses but does not mean anything of value.
                           
                            
                           
                           Some philosophers like the Vaiseshikas would say here
                           that seeing itself proves
                           the reality, as otherwise we should not see at all. This is the realist position, valid in
                           theory when we forget about life values which are fundamental and even
                           conducive to final happiness. When we think of existence, subsistence and value
                           together, and look at the world of name and form, we find it empty of content
                           or of ultimate value-significance; and it is because of this lack of full or final
                           value-content that appearance is to be discarded as false, although the eye is
                           able to see the mirage and falsely perceive the water, even when no
                           thirst-quenching possibility resides there. Advaitic epistemology admits of
                           slightly varying points of view as between the different schools of dualists
                           and qualified non-dualists (as between the empiricists and rationalists of
                           Europe) about the status of appearance, which we shall not discuss here. We
                           shall only note that the Guru, like Sankara, gives no value-content to mere
                           mentations and appearances but wishes to lead us to the pure absolute core of
                           Self-consciousness itself, which is alone existence, subsistence and value,
                           properly speaking.
                           
                           
                           
                           When the Guru repeats here that it is a thing and then says it
                           is not really a thing, he is not merely dismissing an aspect of reality as
                           false, as some Maya-vadins (supporters of the doctrine of appearance) might do,
                           but, while making some allowance for the position of the mere empiricist or
                           realist thinker, finally establishes non-dual reality.
                           
                            
                           
                           Part III
                           
                            
                           
                                   
                           Sujit
                           shared his thoughts with us on this one:
                           
                            
                           
                           Truly intense verse, and equally intense commentary from
                           Guru Nitya. Reading closely through this commentary gives the feeling of two
                           true gurus, like two roads in time, joining and leading further and beyond the
                           horizon. But leaving the reader behind, at the junction, thinking how much
                           more one has to be detached, to take steps on their path towards any experience
                           of that truth ahead.
                           
                            
                           
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                           *         *
                           
                            
                           
                           Amara’s thoughts on witnessing from our Brihadaranyaka
                           Upanishad group cross-pollinate elegantly with the present stage of our study:
                           
                            
                           
                           It is important to know that the mind is a triangular trio
                           cycling  
                           
                           through transparency, translucency and opacity. In Sanskrit
                           this mind dynamic is called sattva, rajas, and tamas. This triple modality can
                           be very challenging to the aspiring witnessing consciousness until discernment
                           comes naturally into the picture.
                           
                            
                           
                           Oneness or sameness is the Way out of this mind trap.
                           
                           Ultimately we find our way back to the basic truth that
                           everything we witness and experience,  animate and inanimate,
                           visible and invisible is made of the same stuff as oneself. All of it, no
                           matter how mundane or how subtly sublime, is illuminated and animated by
                           the one light of the Absolute.
                           
                            
                           
                           This neutralizing truth is the refuge that carries us across
                           many  
                           
                           swollen rivers of confusion and suffering, to the shore of
                           our own Self. When we are delivered to the safe side of the river, we often
                           notice in amazement that all the suffering was a kind of fantasy.
                           
                           The realization then comes that all of it was a mind dream,
                           and that witnessing was the imaginary boat that carried us to solid
                           ground.
                           
                            
                           
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                           Jake’s
                           commentary:
                           
                            
                           
                                   
                           In
                           this verse, the Guru emphasizes his dismissal of the phenomenal world in
                           straightforward terms.  It is the
                           very transience of that world that disqualifies its “reality,” but at the same
                           time it persists in its circular coming and going.  “Like a mirage in the desert,” he notes, we must remember
                           that we can never find meaning (quench our thirst) in what always recedes,
                           disappears, and re-appears.  The
                           validation for this claim lies in the fact of our own physical/mental
                           death.  Denying our own death and
                           pursuing meaning in the transient can only work in the very short run.  Nature
                           will always trump our efforts
                           sooner or later.  But our demise,
                           writes the Guru, can only exist if birth, the cause of death, likewise exists
                           (and all of the mentally constructed names and forms in between).  The entire
                           sequence arises and recedes,
                           in transit always, and it is this fundamental character that both the Guru and
                           Nitya here present as not existing, as not being that which we truly are as we
                           witness the circus.
                           
                                   
                           The
                           fact of our own death constitutes a major concern for most of us.  Conditioned
                           and trained to prosper and
                           find happiness in the world of becoming, we don’t tend to appreciate its ending
                           for us and our powerlessness in preventing that ending.  As e.e. Cummings wrote
                           for Americans so
                           forcefully so many decades ago, “Rage, rage against the dying of the light,” a
                           sentiment shared by too many dedicated to pleasure as the true happiness.
                           
                                   
                           As
                           Nitya proceeds in his commentary, he comments on the almost insurmountable
                           difficulty we face in letting go of our attachment to what is not.  For those
                           choosing the spiritual path,
                           the letting go can be “worked around” in several ways, not the least of which
                           is the transferring of one’s allegiance to a personality and then claiming that
                           shift satisfies the quest because that person—guru, swami, preacher,
                           spellbinder—now personifies that which one can prize as the Absolute.  The
                           true believer, then, is to
                           slavishly follow and not question the power celestial.  When this kind of idolatry
                           arises for
                           Nitya in his work, he says, “I also start planning—to get rid of them” (p.
                           546).
                           
                                   
                           No
                           person or thing in manifestation is stable and permanent, that which
                           lasts.  We all will part company
                           eventually, Nitya writes, and the sooner we come to terms with our death the
                           better.  If we don’t, nature will. 
                           If we part company, live through death,
                           and then come back to participate in the manifest, knowing that all is
                           transient while living in it, death ceases to have any influence on us.
                           
                                   
                           This
                           death in life represents the end of all our egos as a real, controlling force
                           in our lives.  Nitya illustrates
                           what he means by narrating the process through which people become beggars or
                           the sanyasins of the Indian tradition. 
                           They first get rid of all possessions, including their clothes and hair,
                           which are then burned in a ceremony illustrating their death.  They are then given
                           a begging bowl and
                           a piece of cloth to wear.  No
                           longer attached to the material or the earning of a living, the new sanyasin
                           lives entirely (or not) by what comes his way: “He doesn’t have to be serious
                           about it [life]” (p. 548).  This
                           existence, in the ever-present arising, is but an illusion.  Birth, life, and
                           death are merely
                           mental constructions that all disappear only to re-appear.
                           
                                   
                           This
                           point of view or perspective is antithetical to our minds’ constructions and
                           those illusions function most effectively in maintaining our temporary
                           manifestation.  As a result, I
                           think we end up in a war with ourselves. 
                           Philosophically and literally, the Guru and Nitya present a picture of
                           what is naturally true.  In
                           contemporary idiom, “It is what it is.”
                           
                                   
                           For
                           the most part, the mind will have none of it.  Nitya, here, narrates the difficulty a friend of his went
                           through on being informed (via an accompanying x-ray) of his terminal
                           condition.  Faced with this
                           near-term certainty, this man lost hope, essentially dismissing all his
                           philosophical/spiritual work and sank into despair.  “It’s only words,” counseled Nitya, and none of them changed
                           anything.  But “despite his
                           philosophy, when the actual call came he couldn’t accept it” (p. 549).  It
                           is this universal call we will all
                           receive that Nitya points to as a key event that must be loosened from the
                           mind’s control, but it does not relinquish that control without a
                           struggle.  If it cannot reduce you
                           to despair, other options are at hand. 
                           In many Eastern philosophies, writes Nitya, karma and reincarnation act
                           as vehicles that lighten the load. 
                           The notions of individuality and infinite re-birth can act to “kick the
                           can down the road,” so to speak. 
                           In the Semitic religions is the accepting of a god which will then judge
                           your one life on the basis of that confession when everything finally
                           ends.  A third possibility, says
                           Nitya, is to join the Nihilists and make your final Hemingway-esq stand in the
                           face of the infinite unknown.
                           
                                   
                           On
                           page 552, Nitya narrates a way around all this nonsense, a principle which
                           echoes the very point of That Alone:
                           “You have to forfeit all the interests of life.  Then alone do you come to the Absolute.  That means you cease
                           to be.  You cease to be in the absolute sense,
                           not in the relative sense. 
                           Absolutely, you were not, even previously.  You continue to be what That was or what That alone
                           is.”  Arriving at the point at
                           which you have let go and escaped the mind’s control, you can come back to see
                           the immanent in the “re-born” as an Asanga, an unattached person,  for
                           whom, as Singer’s Gimpel
                           proclaimed, “God be praised, even Gimpel there cannot be fooled.”
                           
                            
                           
                           Part IV
                           
                            
                           
                                   
                           Eugene
                           wrote a terrific response:
                           
                            
                           
                           Man Oh Man! It is 5:34 AM and I am in love with this verse.
                           I feel like my existence is an echo or a shadow of this verse. There are so
                           many deaths one experiences in a day, a week, a lifetime, really. It's very
                           cool knowing you are experiencing or about to experience a sort of ego-death.
                           
                            
                           
                           On Friday, I am going to have my present residential and
                           work worlds shook up one way or another. I know this as a fact. I know this has
                           nothing to do with spirituality or morality. I know circumstances have reached
                           a point, yet again, where I can choose to say, "Well, it isn't meant for
                           me to live this life in this way anymore." I could also say, "Where
                           did it all go wrong? Was I awake and aware when I decided to take these
                           paths?" So many seemingly definite answers to definite questions well up
                           like an open can of soda pop I previously shook for decades. 
                           
                            
                           
                           I wonder if I am finding the easy way out. I did not prepare
                           properly. I did not understand how bad the economy had become. I did not
                           understand that I am trying to fulfill some instinctive parental nature by
                           making choices that were not "appropriate" for me. Who knows? I
                           submit to every possibility while knowing it is all a mirage. The transactional
                           matters as a kind of kaleidoscopic microscope or looking glass.
                           
                            
                           
                           It is possible for me to "be friends" with every
                           internal and external transaction. The dread arises when my ego feels as if its
                           monumental efforts to thrive are thwarted and then THINGS FALL APART.
                           
                            
                           
                           I realize Narayana Guru is only stating what we all knew
                           instinctively. Yes, instinctively. From many perspectives, none of this is
                           happening and every possible transaction may happen. Physics for everyone!
                           
                            
                           
                           Strangely, I can't define where this ground of peace-like
                           death/life is relative to my mind. I know that I know that I don't really know
                           that I know that something is freeing up! I know that this experience of
                           letting go or freeing up is also a synthetic experience. I welcome whatever
                           comes. It is all of the same substance.
                           
                            
                           
                           Portland Gurukula, thank you for the class notes. Attending
                           class may not be an option always. Flowers for freedom, these notes can be!
                           
                            
                           
                           Eugene Lewis--sometimes. Ha!
                           
                            
                           
                           PS. You know what is funny? You mentioned not asking
                           "new" people to come to class for this particular verse. I think THIS
                           is what we need. I am sure the Gurus knew how to dispense their version of
                           knowledge and truth, but I would take this one first any lifetime.
                           
                            
                           
                           My response:
                           
                           It may well be what we need, but it ain’t always what we
                           want. Americans especially, products of a brutal environment liberally laced with
                           glamorous attractions, are seldom drawn to such a grave-seeming conception. We
                           think of spirituality as the most glamorous attraction of all, else why bother?
                           So I think the Guru is right to put it after a long period of preparation.
                           
                                   
                           He
                           might have rethought his position, too, in that with Darsanamala, a much later
                           work, he put the concept in the very first darsana, verse 8:
                           
                            
                           
                                   
                           This
                           is terrible and empty of content,
                           
                                   
                           like
                           a phantom city;
                           
                                   
                           even
                           as such, the whole universe
                           
                                   
                           is
                           made as a wonder by the Primeval One.
                           
                            
                           
                           What a hip guy! Almost one hundred years later, Scientific
                           American introduces a radically “new” supposition: the whole universe is a
                           cosmic mirage projected from another universe (which may in turn be another
                           mirage…).
                           
                                   
                           So
                           yes, let’s give up our fascination with “phantom cities” and see what’s left
                           over. Thank you for sharing your thoughts!
                           
                            
                           
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                           Dipika
                           also wrote:
                           
                            
                           
                           What a brilliant verse
                           
                           How true about us & our fantasies
                           
                           If only I could 'kill' myself & live in the 'absolute'
                           sense
                           
                           but am chicken...worried about my basic comforts &
                           whether i will be safe or not without all these false protective layers.
                           
                           Such a pity...that the only way this would be safe &
                           possible is to join a 'sect' & take belief in what they preach.
                           
                            
                           
                                   
                           My
                           response:
                           
                            
                           
                           Well, we're all chickens here. At least we can allow
                           ourselves to be nudged in the right direction by those who aren't. As the Gita
                           says, even a little of this way of life saves one from great apprehension.