3/3/15
Verse 95
This extensive playful display is
maya’s
concealed energy of universal
creativity;
again and again she manifests
here; her limbs
are the ten million cosmic
bodies.
Free
translation:
This world of manifestation is like a sportive display of
maya, who conceals her forms and creates everything with her essence.
Continuously she presents one limb after another, making this grand exhibit of
the cosmos with millions of luminaries.
Nataraja
Guru’s translation:
This expansive display of operative artifice as by Maya
ordained
The shining creative principle of the universe is she;
And she, descending here, her limbs they are that become
The crust of the cosmic egg, in number ten million.
Verse
95 is very moving, but one thing the book cannot adequately convey is the
subtly powerful impetus Nitya was radiating as he spoke, to lift us out of the
depths of doubt and despair that lurked in the hidden recesses of most of our
minds. The words are lightening and enlightening enough by themselves, but sitting
with him as he brought the ideas out from their inner repository made us almost
giddy. Nitya was entertaining an endless string of young adults presenting our
problems to him in all sincerity, and it was fitting that he should take a
moment to express, in his gentle way, “Why don’t you just get over it? It’s not
such a big deal!”
The
timing of the verse near the end of the work indicates a parallel sense of
Narayana Guru saying, “Okay, we’ve looked long and hard at this. Now can you
just let go of some of your baggage and dance a jig? This is supposed to be
fun!” Nitya makes the Guru’s implication explicit:
This verse is for all people to
become light-hearted. We should see the light side of life rather than becoming
so grumpy about everything. If you make a mistake it’s because Mother Nature
wants you to make it. So don’t have any sense of guilt, make your mistakes
gladly. If you don’t make little mistakes, God will call out to you: “Fool! I
gave you a chance. I sent you to the world, and you didn’t make any mistake.
Stupid! Get out!”
It isn’t that we should try to make mistakes—that’s a
contradictory proposition. Mistakes are the unintended consequences of our
actions, otherwise we’d call them something else. But the fear of making mistakes paralyzes us, turning us grumpy,
or
worse. It stems from childhood punishments and humiliations. If we can accept
that we are no longer trapped in that stage of life, we can begin to enjoy
ourselves much more. Many people hypothesize a punitive God to substitute for
their childhood oppressors, prolonging their misery for a whole lifetime.
Hopefully, the Guru’s instruction has helped us to desist from that type of
binding fantasy. We can now put our best foot forward, and if we stumble we
just get back up and continue on our way.
It’s
not that we can simply ignore our problems. They have to be dealt with. All of
us have experienced hardships and tragedies, and we can expect more of them in
the future. Spirituality is not a guarantee of a trouble free existence. But
depending on our mental orientation, problems can either wipe us out or prod us
to find solutions. Ideally they are growth opportunities.
Andy
noted how tragedies challenge you to step out of your normal roles, and that if
you can take the long view they are less painful than they otherwise might be.
He said tragedies can even become funny if you’re capable of seeing yourself as
a small fry, relatively unimportant in the overall scheme. We do tend to
exaggerate our importance, and blow things up out of proportion. To me, it has
to do with our expectations. If they are not met we get upset—sometimes very
upset—but if we can maintain an open attitude, what comes along will be
fascinating and often gratifying. Bill added that if you shut yourself off from
traumatic situations, you don't make mistakes and you don't get to experience
the world in all its richness.
A
key idea here is that lightheartedness does not mean being superficial and
ignoring the dark side of life. When properly understood, the dark and the
light go together to make the world, and the wonder of it is very uplifting.
Lightheartedness, then, comes from knowing more rather than less about the
situation. If the Absolute is knowledge, as Narayana Guru holds, this makes
perfect sense.
Happily,
Michael reported a recent epiphany that provides a perfect example of the value
of becoming lighthearted. For the past year or so he has been getting
frustrated and angry with some of his coworkers. The other day at home he was
reading some wise words of Marcus Aurelius, and he suddenly felt that he could
let his resentments all go. And they went! It was more like the culmination of
a gradual ripening than an instantaneous conversion, but the result was a
sudden freeing from oppressive emotional states. He realized that all along he could
have been laughing in the face of adversity instead of being annoyed by it.
Michael
understood what had happened with an interesting analogy, which should help
extend his epiphany. By being upset he was carrying a chip on his shoulder
(American slang for holding a grudge), and last year he developed an actual
debilitating shoulder injury, for which he had to have an operation. The
surgeon replaced a piece of his degenerated shoulder with a bone chip from a
cadaver, and the repair healed up slowly but successfully. Michael decided the
implant was enough of a chip on his shoulder he didn’t need any other chips.
The idea made him laugh out loud, and the laughter released the tension that he
had been holding there for a vey long time. He told us it wasn’t just chips,
but whole logs that rolled off him. Now if he’s tempted to get grumpy about
something, he remembers he already has a chip on his shoulder, so he doesn’t
need another, and he lets it go. Now he can finally breathe easily once again.
Literally.
This
demonstrates that we don’t always have to know the exact cause of our
conundrums, though that can help. The coworkers were likely incidental
manifestations of a more deep-seated trauma. The roots of these things are
often buried beyond reach, but if we can change our attitude in a general way
it affects everything. One major reorientation like Michael’s can produce a
world of benefits. He has put a lot of time into understanding his world,
including in the Gurukula classes, and while any changes aren’t necessarily
immediately obvious, sometimes they bear fruit. As Gayathri quoted in another
context, according to Zen achieving nirvana is an accident, but practice makes
us more accident prone.
If
you’ll recall, Nitya presented the idea of gradual percolation into the psyche
as a kind of hypnotic suggestion back in Verse 65, at the close of the second
of three “semesters” of our study:
This was certainly a wonderful
experience for all of us to gather in the mornings and sit together and
commune. Not all the days were alike, and everything you heard might not have
been so inspiring, but here and there something must have gone deep into you.
That little bit which strikes home, that makes a flicker of recognition and
continues to shimmer in us, is enough to give us some direction in life. There
is no need to learn each verse and then rationally apply it in everyday life.
You can even hear it and forget it. Forgetting means it only goes deeper into
you. Once you have heard it, it will go and work its way by itself.
The
effect will be very subtle. It comes almost without you knowing that it is
something which you heard that is enabling you to see things in a new light or
make resolutions in a certain more helpful way. Nothing is ever lost. Even this
very peace that comes to our mind during these verses is so penetrating that we
feel the depth of the soul, the Self. It is indescribable. The indistinct part
of it is as beautiful as the distinct. In a Chinese painting most of it is indistinct,
but this does not make it in any way less valuable than a realistic photograph.
Now as we approach the end of our time with Atmopadesa
Satakam, Nitya makes a similar address to the assembled multitude:
We are coming to the close of our
study of the Self. If you are making an inquiry into the Self to get away from
all the miseries, pains and tribulations of this world, you must first know
that all these tribulations are creations of maya. In this sense maya becomes a
kind of enemy. A couple of verses ago there was a reference to maya taking
revenge when someone tries to escape the world of manifestation and turn to the
transcendental. That aspect is still there. But if you are a wise person—and
the Guru expects that by now, the ninety-fifth verse, you should be wise—he
wants you to also participate in the grand humor.
The class recognized the joke here: we are never going to
think of ourselves as wise. In some ways we are less sure of ourselves than
ever, after pondering ninety-five verses of incisive philosophy. But that
less-assuredness actually opens us up to the kind of epiphany that Michael
reported. It produces a more transparent mental state, where our obsessions are
relaxed enough so they don’t impede the emergence of transformative insights.
Transparency
was a catchword of Nataraja Guru, and in the Bhagavad Gita (XVII, 16) he
uniquely and wonderfully translates bhava
samshuddhi as “an imagination of creative transparency.” Here’s what I
wrote about it:
“Imagination of creative
transparency” means first of all that you have cleared the garbage out of the
way in your life so that your innate creativity can come to the fore. Transparency
does not impede or distort what passes through it. Distortions occur when we
overlay our personal quirks onto the situation; when selfish interests are
dispensed with we see things for what they are rather than what we can make
from them. This brings great freedom to the mind, which then infuses every
aspect of life.
The
creative aspect is an important inclusion. All too often, purity is equated
with emptiness. Here, the purity constitutes a liberation from obstacles,
allowing enhanced freedom in contemplation and thought in general. You are not
simply a ghost through which the winds of life blow, you are a participating
co-creator who brings an optimized state of mind to whatever is taking place.
While not distorting, you are meeting the situation with an open heart and an
open mind.
Deb
talked about how she once despised the idea of life as a game, a sport or lila. She felt it trivialized
everything, and in that context laughter could be cruel and callous. Some
things just can’t be laughed at or laughed off.
Not
everything is laughable—far from it. But a healthy philosophy should help us to
cope with even the most gruesome situations we find ourselves in. Deb added
that laughter is a great gift that creates a spaciousness around us. She was
talking about loving laughter, not the derisive version that bears the same
name.
The
idea of life being a game is much more profound than watching soccer on the
tele. Among other things, it invites us to participate. A game is supposed to
be played, and we are its players. At our best we play creatively and
compassionately. And funny does not have to mean superficial. In Nitya’s words,
“It is not just a joke. The joke is a meaningful game of continuing the
phenomenality of the world.” So keep it going, and while you’re at it help make
it even more interesting.
Susan
mentioned how, especially when things get too dramatic for her, she imagines
she is on an Elizabethan stage with everyone wearing period costumes, possibly
an echo of Shakespeare’s “All the world’s a stage.” Not to mention, “The play’s
the thing, wherein I’ll catch the conscience of the king.” (Yes, Shakespeare got
it.) Meditating on the world as a stage play is vey revealing. Both witnesses
and participants are involved, and they must fulfill their roles or the whole
pageant is pointless. Both can play well or badly, and the quality of the
performance depends on how well they do. Bushra cautioned us that
what appears to be good may be bad and what appears bad
may be good. Which of course keeps the game especially interesting. And as
Nancy said, the whole thing is balanced: in the long run it comedies and
tragedies come out even.
Nitya
reminds us we need to know the rules and play by them, or we may be in for a
bad surprise. The trick is, the rules we believe in are mostly false,
fairytales of society, and the real rules are quite different. We learn what
they are mostly by making mistakes, though if we tried hard enough we could
figure some of them out on our own, with a little help from our friends. The
fact that the game is so complicated and baffling should make us laugh. Maya
can defeat us so easily! Geez. Yet how boring would it be if the game was so
simplistic we could figure it out in no time? Luckily it isn’t. We will never
run out of things to learn and mistakes to make. Nitya calls this the science
of humor:
In the Yoga Vasistha and many other Indian stories,
there will always be a
terrible demon asking riddles. If you are wise you are rewarded, given the
whole kingdom and great riches, but if you are not wise you will be eaten by
the demon. In the Vikramaditya there
is a story of a corpse and a king. The corpse puts riddle after riddle to the
king, but he is capable of answering them all. These are wonderful metaphors
for the science of humor maya is creating every moment.
In
order to know the Absolute you should also know what is not the Absolute. If you
want to know what truth is, you should also know what is not truth. Then you
can exercise your viveka, your great
discrimination.
In other words, we have to carefully discriminate between
absolute and relative, eternal and transient, and so on. Not that we are
supposed to only have one and not the other! They go together seamlessly. By
now, the wisdom we should have picked up from Atmo is that these aspects of
oneness are to be integrated, not divided. Maya is not an enemy undermining the
Absolute, it is how the Absolute is expressed. Without it there is nothing. It
is to be embraced as the momentary appearance of the Absolute here and now. You
can’t have fun if you don’t exist! Nitya emphasizes this near the end:
Narayana Guru by no means
personifies maya as Satan or the devil. The touch of humor with which he deals
with it should brighten our minds and ease our spirits. The great secret of
this is called lila. If you
understand the world as a lila, a play or sport, it lightens all your troubles.
I’ll
close with the text of Verse 35, where Andy is in the online class with Nancy
Y. He was greatly moved by the verse’s image depicting maya in vivid terms as
“the veil of transience covering knowledge,” and recalled it for all of us.
This is an aha! moment writ large. May it happen to everyone:
Like
ten thousand suns coming all at once,
the
modulation of discrimination arises;
the
veil of transience covering knowledge is maya;
tearing
this away, the primal sun alone shines.
Part II
Neither This Nor That But . . . Aum:
There
are many dialectical pairs of opposites, such as the transcendent and the
immanent, spirit and matter, the eternal and the transient, the bright and the
dark, the Self and the non-Self, the manifest and the unmanifest, wisdom and nescience,
the timeless and the temporal, the vertical and the horizontal, the graceful
and the obstructive. Between these pairs of opposites there is a fundamental
paradox which needs to be understood by every contemplative in order to have a
unitive vision of truth. This enigma or paradox that confronts the
contemplative, causing confusion which inevitably leads to misery, is the
common lot of all, and we see fervent prayers offered in the scriptures of all
religions for the redressal of this dark and deluding force.
In
the Isavasya Upanishad the prayer closes with a special request for the
illuminating fire of wisdom to lead one from ignorance to wisdom and not into
the crooked path of nescience. The Buddhists repeat at least five times every
day their pledge of allegiance to the Buddha, the dharma, the sangha and the
five pledges of restraint called pancashila.
The Lord’s Prayer says, “Lead us not into temptation,” and similar prayers
occur again and again in the Holy Quran.
What
is treated as the devil or the dark deluding force by most religious believers
is described by the Vedantins as maya. In their hands, the connotation of this
term attains to a philosophical magnitude which is not conceptually derogatory
or despicable, as in references like the devil, mara or ibliss.
Nataraja
Guru gives the following working definition of maya in his commentary on verse
54: Maya is the principle of nescience or ignorance which is not an entity but
a convenient term or mathematical factor or element with which to relate the
two aspects of the Absolute which always co-exist. Like the square root of
minus one and its positive counterpart in the square of the same number,
understood reciprocally or ambivalently, as it enters into electro-magnetic
calculations in modern physics, Maya is to be understood in terms of the
philosophy of India, especially that of Sankara, as a negative vertical factor
admitting contradiction horizontally but unity vertically.*
What
is to be noted here is the special mention that maya, when viewed vertically,
can offer us a sense of unity and only gives us confusing multiplicity when it
affects our understanding horizontally.
In
verse 15, the concept of maya was introduced as a drag in time. Boredom and
anxiety are two evils that centre around a person’s sense of time. Man is
destined to sit and wait for long hours and sometimes years in vain
anticipation of the arrival of a factual or imaginary moment of delight. In
verse 19, maya appears as the difference of opinion because of the possibility
of the plurality of standpoints each mind can have, and it also comes as an
obduracy which prevents a person from relieving himself of his vested interests
and pet beliefs so as to have a more universal or catholic view. In verse 35, maya
is referred to as a veiling principle, which, like an appalling failure of
memory, comes again and again even to a wise man so that he may forget the
reality of his true Self. In verse 51, maya is presented as the grand dichotomy
which differentiates the subject from the object, and thus, in this context, it
is the basis of the factual world of all transactions. In verse 54, maya is the
basis of the alternating phases of consciousness, such as the wakeful and the
sleeping, which affects, with the alternation of day and night, not only human
beings, but the entire world. In verse 57, maya reappears as the potentials and
the possibilities of a prior absence in the process of continuous
actualization. As the incipient memories and the innate tendencies of man are
also aspects of this process of actualization, man’s destiny lies in his
understanding of maya. In verse 58, maya is the most confounding confusion,
which breaks up the unity of all and pushes the mind into the prison walls of
fragmentary interests. In verse 71, maya is viewed vertically as a divine sport
in which all beings have their assigned roles to play. The same verticalized
view continues in verse 72, in which maya no longer obstructs a wise person
from having the most blessed experience of unitive understanding. In verse 87, maya
is given the exalted position of being as incomprehensible as the Absolute.
However, in the next verse the reader is warned that maya does not forgive even
the slightest discrepancy of understanding and, in this context, it is identical
with the unalterable laws of nature. In verse 94, the dark and bright aspects
of maya are dialectically paired, and maya is raised to an exalted degree of
wonder. It is from this appraisal that we come to the present verse, in which maya
is given several bright epithets, even though it continues to be the vertical
negative counterpart of the Absolute.
If
liberation belongs to the science of the Absolute, our life on earth belongs to
the science of the sportive humour of the cosmos. If God or the Absolute is
presiding over one’s liberation or emancipation, maya presides over the
ludicrous situations of trial and error and hide-and-seek of truth and
falsehood. Unlike the domain of the Transcendent Being, the world of maya is
rich with a fecundity of manifestation. Out of nowhere, as though by magic, new
bodies evolve and become animated with the most lively interests, but after
playing a role which looks utterly serious, the manifested entities burst like
a bubble and once again vanish into oblivion. The cause of laughter vanishes in
the silence of gloom and depression, and the clouds of grief and despair are
shattered by the brilliance of the beautiful display of the creative dynamics
of life. Thus, on the whole, the comedy and the tragedy of life balance perfectly
in maya’s science of humour.
* Nataraja
Guru, One Hundred Verses of Self Instruction, (Varkala: Gurukula Publishing
House, 1969) p. 180.
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*
Nataraja Guru’s commentary:
HOW did this world come to be? This is perhaps one of
the most challenging of questions that could be put to the scientist,
philosopher or theologian. Various answers are found in the scriptures of the
world, from the Song of Creation of the Rig-Veda (X. 129) to the creation found
in Genesis of the Bible. The Santi-Parva of the Mahabharata also gives the
picture, producing water first like another darkness in darkness. Maya is the
cause of creation in the Upanishadic context. This Maya is represented in
mythological language as a female principle of creation or illusion.
Mind and its ignorance are attributed to this female or
negative principle of
nescience, and all the magical variety of the world is attributed to it.
Theistic schools of philosophy, such as that of Ramanuja, prefer to give the
function of creation to God, in His goodness and bounty, rather than to any
evil principle. The problem of evil is not squarely faced by such schools but
inclusively attributed to the Divine Principle itself. Why should God take the
trouble of creation at all? Even this question is answered in various ways by
giving primacy to the upadana
(material) rather than to the nimitta
(instrumental) agency of the Absolute Godhead. The idea of lila or the sport of
God in creation is also not unknown.
The Guru here strictly adheres to this same tradition of
contemplative literature. We
have to note that here he is at the end of his series of verses of
Self-realization. Without deflecting from the conception of Maya as a negative
or female principle of creation, he lifts the concept as high as the hypostatic
level of ascending dialectics, as would be consistent with the negative nature
of the principle itself. The Absolute is finally neither negative nor positive.
To derive the negative Absolute from the neutral Absolute is
a delicate matter if one is not to part company with the theologian on the one
side or join hands with the sceptic on the other. In the present verse the Guru
accomplishes this delicate and difficult task without violating the norms of
any school of thought, mythological, theological, scientific or philosophical.
The tacit epistemological frame of reference developed in the previous verses
is not departed from. Negative nescience is still the origin of the manifested
universe.
Words like ‘shining’, ‘sportive’, ‘creative’, and ‘expansive’, which
might at first not
seem consistent with the darkness which is supposed to be the origin of the universe,
are here justified
in the light of the fact that, step by step, the duality
between light and darkness
has been abolished by the Guru, and by the time he arrives at the 95th verse he is
able to speak of the negative principle as negative only to the Absolute
conceived in ultimately philosophical and scientific terms.
The reference to the limbs of the personified negative
principle materialising here
below as the crust or shell of the cosmic egg has its justification both semantically and
scientifically. In Sanskrit there is reference to the cosmic egg or brahmanda as a kind of unit of creation
with an individuation for each entity that is created. The monadology of
Leibniz has the same kind of unit-conception and the Nyaya-Vaiseshika schools
of Indian realistic philosophy have the idea of the paramanu (the ultimate real particle) which has two outer sides
and
an inner vertical aspect which together represent reality in atomic form.
Matter is something that we touch with its properties of
heaviness, inertia, impenetrability, etc. It is still something that the self
experiences, as it were, from inside, and its being ‘out there’ in space is not
valid in the strict sense. Unity and multiplicity are dialectical counterparts
of reality which have to be reduced into non-dual oneness as envisaged in verse
96 below. It is thus a conceptual world in which all these speculations are to
live and move.
Modern physics itself admits of this kind of conceptual
approach, as we have already
noticed in verse 92. Eddington actually alludes to the cosmic number ‘N’, which
refers to the
actual number of protons and electrons in the universe.
We shall not enter into this
way of evaluation of the number N by modern scientists, but only say that it refers to
an
actual and
fixed figure raised to the power of 256. When the Guru here refers to a fixed number of a ‘crore’ (ten
million) as the units that comprise the manifested universe, he is only
speaking somewhat the same
language as modern physicists.
It is the outer limbs of this virile or fecund principle of
creativity that thus
transform or metamorphose themselves as the shell of the cosmic egg. Brahmanda-kataha itself is an expression
in usage in Sanskrit which refers to the outer crust of the cosmos, treated as a whole and unitively.
When
such units are
spoken of as making millions, we have to understand that the Absolute combines the one and the
many at its two poles. Descending dialectics gives us the
picture of multiplicity in
the horizontal aspect of the universe, and the vertical unity underlying it
holds them together. The one and the many are natural counterparts in the
dialectical way of reasoning.
The next verse will examine this dialectical polarity at
closer quarters.
Part III
Michael
added some nuances to my reporting on his epiphany about letting all the chips
on his shoulder roll off, leaving him lighter on his feet:
It
seems prudent to me to clarify that the spectrum of my frustration was much
greater than my day job. That grouchy outlook had become pervasive throughout
my everyday life and was my default reaction to anything deemed
unfavorable. The chips (logs) on my shoulders were far greater than mere
coworkers, in fact work was likely the least troubling - but where it most
easily manifested. Those chips, logs, wood scraps and so on, were highly charged
by deep seated negative aggravations and anxieties with family members and
traditionally reliable friends. The release of the log jam doesn't necessarily
imply reconciliation with some of these people either, many of whom I have
little desire in rekindling anything with... I'm more interested in
strengthening relationships, and making new ones, that are hopefully more
sympatico.
One
of the tools I hope to get from professional therapy is how to properly
interact with & address many of the people in which we are mutually vexed
with each other. I'm not interested in grudges or permanently shutting anyone
out. I'd like to learn better to respond rather than react. However in a few
cases presently having some space/distance from some of them is strangely
beneficial.
After
2-3 months of serious pondering, images and ideas would appear, like the drawing
I attached. Or the photo of the Ganges headwaters coming together at Devprayag
(because of a story Prabu told me). Eventually I figured out that I could just
drop my "load" and only carry the one that's literally screwed in
(the shoulder repair). The relief I feel is huge. I can breathe again and
already find much more levity in my daily affairs. I know it's an ongoing
process and will take work and perseverance on my part - but I'm glad for it.
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Last
week I reread this verse in preparing it to send out, and this part must have
made an unconscious impression on me:
In Jean-Paul Sartre’s story The Wall, three
political prisoners were
ordered to be killed. Two of them became sick with the fear of dying. The third
knew it was inevitable, that there was no way of reasoning with such people. He
accepted he would be shot, and he did not want to die a mean death. He said, “I
will die, but I will die in full consciousness. It is the inevitable end: today
or tomorrow I have to die. I accept it.”
Here
the Guru goes one step further. It is not taken just as inevitable, it is taken
as the inevitable humor of life. If you are born, you have to die. It’s part of
the game, so you accept it. When you accept it as a game, a lila, the whole
complexion of it changes.
A
day or two later I dreamed I was going to be shot in the head by a soldier. My
initial reaction was stark fear and to try to escape, and I started to run
away. I could sense the deadly intent of my assailant, and knew he would not
give up. He shot me in the arm as I ran, so I stopped. I knew the next bullet
would go right into my brain, so I instantly switched over to a meditative
state. I didn’t want to spend my last moments in terror. I thought to myself,
“This is it!” I gathered myself into a profoundly focused state, tuning out
everything but the sense of being immediately alive. Then I woke up.
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The
latest issue of Scientific American Mind (March/April 2015) has an inspiring
article on music therapy, featuring a story relevant to our class discussion.
An 11-year-old girl named Laurel suffered a massive stroke that made her
virtually unable to speak. You can imagine how paralyzing an event like that
would be for the whole family. I can personally testify to the agony of not
being able to speak when you are nonetheless conscious. Luckily, (presumably)
lighthearted scientists have been very excited by the possibility of music
helping people regain their verbal ability. They helped Laurel work to regain
her speech, where in the past she would have been warehoused for her lifetime
as permanently disabled. Here’s a bit from the article, The Healing Power of
Music, by William Forde Thompson and Gottfried Schlaug:
Through a type of treatment
called melodic intonation therapy, Laurel learned to draw on undamaged brain
regions that moderate the rhythmic and tonal aspects of language, bypassing the
speech pathways on the left side of her brain that were destroyed. In other
words, she found her way back to language through music….
The
benefits of melodic intonation therapy were dramatic for Laurel…. The stroke had destroyed much of her
left hemisphere…. When she began therapy in 2008, she could not string together
more than two or three words, and her speech was often ungrammatical, leaving
her frustrated whenever she tried to communicate. Her treatment plan was
intensive…. By the end of the 15-week treatment period, she could speak in
sentences of five to eight words, sometimes more. Over the next several years
she treated herself at home using the techniques she learned during the
sessions. Today, eight years after her stroke, Laurel spends some of her time
as a motivational speaker, giving hope and support to fellow stroke survivors.
Her speech is not quite perfect but remarkable nonetheless for someone whose
stroke damaged so much of her left brain. (34,36)
When we’re at our best, the tragedies of life motivate us to
do something constructive to alleviate them. We learn from this type of
“mistake” as much or more than we do from our own foibles.
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Jake’s
commentary:
Verse
95 is a change of pace: “This verse is for all people to become light hearted,”
writes Nitya (p. 680). The world
in which we live moves through the gunas; in it we experience “divine bright reflection, kinetic
energy, and dark inertia.” In the
Christian interpretations, the dark dimension is associated with sin and evil
whereas in the Vedanta interpretation that element is perceived as ignorance
and inertia. In both cosmologies,
however, the distinction between the manifest and the transcendent remains an
enigma in which both inter-weave in ways beyond human understanding.
The
advantage of the Vedanta view is that the world of necessity is not a one-
dimensional play over-shadowed by a moralizing ethic that assigns value to
every element. Maya is what it is
and functions as it does with or without our consent or approval. Nature contains the humorous or
playful, those qualities seriously marginalized in the Western view. However tragic nature may appear, there
remains in its inevitable cycles that continuous shifting through the gunas for
every life form existing. Nitya
illustrates this “playful” element by referencing the cat and the mouse. The mouse is specifically designed
to
sense food morsels and has the capacity to access it by gnawing through all
kinds of materials. The cat, on
the other hand, has an innate taste for mouse. (It is, in fact, the most nutritious and complete cat food
existing.) Once the two become
engaged, the outcome is uncertain until the encounter concludes. The mouse may escape or it may be
lunch.
This
general model Nitya applies to all life forms, including people: “Whether you
are a mouse or Nixon [and his Watergate], maya makes no distinction. She says, “This is my game—the grand
universal play of life” (p. 681).
An inevitable consequence of our situation is our talent for making
mistakes. The game, so to speak,
is rigged from the get-go, and we will make errors as a method of
education. The making of them is
not an issue, writes Nitya. It is
in the making them interesting that our future lies. Rather than bemoan the inevitable and cultivate regret, we
ought to use our mistakes as opportunities to craft new pathways. In this regard, learning through our
mistakes becomes an exercise in growth and change rather than contrition and
inertia.
Another
term Nitya reintroduces in this commentary is Lila, play or sport.
The world certainly does present us with darkness and death. But it also rotates into brightness and
light. It is this playful rotation
that distinguishes the Maya of Vedanta from the Satan of the Old Testament. It could be that the latter has also
had influence on
artistic expression in the West.
The number of dramatists far exceeds the number of comedians (and many
contemporary “comedians” are simply mean-spirited self-promoters). Their skewed perspective emerges
especially clearly when the subject of death gets illustrated in dramatic form. The narrative generally assumes a grim,
judgmental flavor and more often than not ends ominously. On the other hand are those exceptions
that pop up here and there, such as Woody Allen’s short dialogue/play entitled
“Death Knocks.” In it the
protagonist, an everyman named Nat Ackerman, receives an uninvited guest—the
Medieval Grim Reaper—to his apartment in New York. “Mr. Reaper” is there to collect Nat for his trip
to the
great beyond, but Nat has other ideas.
As the play opens, Death has arrived through the window:
Death: (for it is no one else)
“Jesus Christ. I almost broke my
neck.”
Nat: (watching with bewilderment):
“Who are you?”
Death: “Death.”
Nat: “Who?”
Death: “Death, listen—can I sit
down? I nearly broke my neck. I’m shaking like a leaf.”
Nat: “Who are you?”
Death: “Death. You got a glass of water?”
Nat: “What do you mean, death?”
Death: “What is wrong with
you? You see the black costume and
the whitened face?”
Nat: “Yeah.”
Death: “Is it Halloween?”
Nat: “No.”
Death: “Then I’m Death. Now can I get a glass
of water—or a
Fresca?”
Nat: “If this is some joke—“
Death: “What kind of joke? You’re fifty-seven?
Nat Ackerman? One Eighteen Pacific Street? Unless I blew it—where’s that call sheet? (He
fumbles through pocket, finally producing a card with an address on
it. It seems to check.)
Nat: “What do you want with me?”
Death: “What do I want? What do you think I want?”
Nat: “You must be kidding. I’m in perfect
health.”
Death: (unimpressed)
“Uh-huh. (Looking around) This is a nice place. You do it yourself?”
Nat: “We had a decorator, but we
worked with her”
Death: (looking at the picture on the wall) “I
love those kids with the big eyes. “
Nat: “I don’t want to go yet.”
Death: “You don’t want to go?
Please don’t start in. As
it is, I’m nauseous from the climb.”
Nat: “What climb?”
Death: “I climbed up the drainpipe. I was
trying to make a dramatic
entrance. I see the big windows
and you awake reading. I figure
it’s worth a shot. I’ll climb up
and enter with a little—you know . . . (snaps
fingers). Meanwhile, I get my
heel caught on some vines, the drainpipe breaks, and I’m hanging by a
thread. Then my cape begins to
tear. Look, let’s just go. It’s been a rough night.”
Nat: “You broke my drainpipe?”
Death: “Broke. It didn’t break. It’s
a little bent. Didn’t you hear anything? I slammed into the ground.”
Nat: “I was reading.”
Death: “you must have really been
engrossed. (lifting newspaper Nat was reading) ‘NAB COEDS IN POT ORGY.’ Can I borrow
this?”
Nat: “I’m not finished.”
Death: “Er—I don’t know how to put
this to you, pal . . .”
Nat: “Why didn’t you just ring
downstairs?”
Death: “I’m telling you I could
have, but how does it look? This
way I get a little drama going.
Something. Did you read Faust?”
Death: “And what if you had
company? You’re sitting there with
important people. I’m Death—I should
ring the bell and traipse right in the front? Where’s your thinking?”
Nat: “Listen, Mister, it’s very
late.”
Death; “Yeah, well, you want to
go?”
Nat: “Go where?”
Death: “Death. It. The Thing. The
Happy Hunting Grounds. (looking at his own knee) Y’know, that’s a pretty bad cut. My
first job. I’m liable to
get gangrene yet.”
Nat: “Now, wait a minute. I need time. I’m
not ready to go.”
Death: “I’m sorry. I can’t help you.
I’d like to, but it’s the moment.”
Nat: “How can it be the
moment? I just merged with Modiste
Originals.
Death: “What’s the difference, a
couple of bucks more or less.”
Nat: “Sure, what do you care? You guys probably
have all your
expenses paid.”
Death: “You want to come along
now?”
Nat: (studying him) I’m sorry, but I cannot believe
you are Death.”
Death: Why? What’d you expect—Rock Hudson?”
(Woody Allen, “Death Knocks,”)